tear
my paper
skin
you are
ruinous
I no longer
feel you
inside
me;
I feel
only
an emptiness
like
sitting
at the bottom
of the ocean
watching
a fishing boat
pass overhead.

I thought
I loved you
but loving
does not
break you
like stepping
on a beetle
and hearing
it’s exoskeleton
crack.

He thought
he
was
wearing armor.
He could not
protect
himself
from feeling.
He could not
stop
death.

It’s strange how the place you desperately wanted to escape becomes the place you long for most. I want to go home.

sometimes
at night
I wish the ceiling
would open up
so I could see
the stars
wishes don’t
come true
I open wide
I open
like a gaping
hole

you said you flew
1,837 miles
to use me

then you drove
3 hours
after midnight
to use me again

if I were a lie detector
you’d have black ink
scratching across my paper skin

The biggest hurt in the world is when you love someone more than you love yourself, and they cannot see it.

The time comes when you realize self-love and self-respect are more important. You realize you are worth fighting for. Fighting for anyone but yourself is ruinous. So try not to love someone who lets you give all of yourself away, if they are not willing to give it back.

I lost the most important piece of myself to you. I loved you without reservation, without question. I loved you with only compromise. I overlooked your flaws and accepted all of you, good and bad.

I accepted what you gave to me. I accepted nothing. I love you, but you don’t understand what love is. You will walk around with a hole in your chest, unsure what is missing. I will love you always, but you will not know it.

Never be cruel to someone who loves you. It will come back to you one day.

whispers and webs
you’re a spider in my bed

the moon remains in the sky
even as daylight pushes it away
I want you just as often

labels and labia
I’m confusion in your coffee